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Goodnight

Woke up late
Rushed to the skytrain
Walked really fast to
The scotia dance centre
Had my meeting
Officially start teaching
JULY 7!
Kelvin & Malcolm
Picked me up
All you can eat
@ Robson sushi
Walked & shopped
New top & nail polish
Later Dukester
Kelvin surprised me with
Tickets to a play
Shakespeare comedy
Pretty fcking funny!
Walked from the
Space centre to
Kitts beach
Watched the sun go down
Talked about the history
Of our scars.. Mostly mine
Walked back to the car
Picked up a hooker
(Jk.. that's for next time ;)
Drove home
He asked my mom for permission
Possibility of me going to Toronto
A week away & to ourselves :)
Watched a movie downstairs
Feel asleep
And then he left
@ 215

Don't SAY you don't know how much I LOVE surpises!

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6:23
Aubrey's Debut was wonderful. Night ended early, but cleaning up was fun! Everybody going around trying to pop as many balloons as possible. Ladies with their heels and fellas trying to pop each others balloons under their shirts to see if they could take the sting of the plastic popping. The party ended around 1230 for me till I got picked up. Once I was in the car, had I not known that it was going to be the beginning of my night.
Dropped Shellaine off, and headed back to surrey to kill time before picking up the 5intoxicated clubbers "its ma birthday bitch!" Picking them up from one of the mcDs was so interesting to watch. While lame guys hit on drunk girls and big guys tried to start sht with biggER guys, I enjoyed the biggest icecream cone I've ever had from any mcds I've ever gone too. I should have taken a picture, but I didn't think of that at the moment. Mind was so occupied with the many distractions around me. Kelvin was reading my horoscope but I don't think I was paying attention hahaha, sorry babe. After dropping everyone home we got in around 3 and had the rest of the night for ourselves. I think it was the first time we didn't watch "whose line is it anyways?" amazing! Can't actually recall the last thing we were watching. But I do recall falling asleep involuntarily. I enjoyed that actually, but lucky I woke up at 6ish to realize that I needed to get my ass home. So here I am @ 645 writing this blog before I go back to sleep again. Damn its so bright out already.
I mean it when I say this...
GOODnight!

Don't you SAY good bye. Till you leave me for that additional 2 months...now its 7! I hate you for telling me that! I was just accepting 5months.

I LOVE accidentally sleeping over. I'm going to miss that! Uhhhhh you suck!

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Yes my hairs growing :)
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Rest In Paradise

He says most of what I was thinking...

& yeah i did tear up!

SAY your respects to one of the most LOVEd men on this earth.

R.I.P

GRADuated..

Today, we picked up our report cards at school. I'm glad to say that i finished off the year finding out that I recieved 2 department awards. One for Dance12 and the other was for an "Outstanding Art Student Award." Recieving the Shirley Clements Scholarship from Outbreak was a bonus, as well as winning a $1,000 Scholarship for FineArts. Honestly, I thought that I would be leaving school with my grad cap and thats about it. These awards came as a surprise to me. To think of what I could have gotten if I actually TRIED? haha :P But i'm happy & i'm pretty sure my parents (especially my mom) are pretty pleased as well. Here I go out into what everyone is calling "The real world." Working a full time job for the summer, as well as a 2nd teaching job. Then once october rolls in School starts up again. And within another year and a half i'll have my diploma and off with my career! A year and a half isn't even that long. Highschool was 4/5 years long and I can still remember grade 8 so vividly. Everythings basically set...

I want this summer to last. Since we both know it'll be another Megan Fox and Shia Labeouf good bye. Except that you're not going to be coming back to save the world with Optomis Prime. Once September comes you're off to University... while I go to school here. 5 months is a long time, i just hope you don't have to extend you're stay for any reason. Transfer to UBCVan as soon as you can. So until september we got to do all the things we said we would. Lets make the most of our summer together, even if half of it might include Juan ;) haha jk.

Don't SAY LOVE.. not yet.

You know, right when we started talking again I had overwhelmed by our friendship slowly growing over small conversations and late night hang outs. When we reached that official point we were at peak point, or at least I felt that way for a bit. Every time we were together, my love soul would fly higher. But as time between us apart came along my high would burn out and the feelings would go back to its neutral; @ its satisfactory point. Why was this I asked? Why was I feeling just okay with everything when everything was going perfect?
Cause it was too good to be true. You made me happy all the time. My family loves you, and didn't mind how late you kept me out. My mom trusts me way too much when I'm with you. You get a long with everyone I make you meet. And I still wasn't feeling it as much as I should have been. Today I found out why. Today I got that sure feeling. Today we "argued".
That's all I needed. I needed that balance of good and bad. I guess I can't really say it was bad nor did we really argue, but we just communicated with a struggle, and I liked that. You cared too much, and I pushed you away to stop. But you're cute when you care. Like I said I was just tired and cold. No big, not your fault, so I don't know why you need to say sorry. Plus I do owe you for taking care of me that night. I'm so sorry... I partied way too early.
So now that I have gotten to see that we can have a down side I'm more then happy and more then satisfied :D I'm in...l..l.. No, I'm not going to SAY LOVE. Not yet :)

Thanks batman
Love: the gongshow ;) (thnks GG)
Haha fm new nickname, I'm the sht!
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Yourwords

You've always been good with your words. Ever since grade 8. My yearbook in grade 8 was one for the books, but in grade 9.. Well you know how much that made me cry, it even made Mel cry and it wasn't even for her! And here we are now in grade 12 making up for lost times through 10 and 11. Now your writing was even better than before.

I know you're words are truly written. No pressure nor force, just straight from the heart, mind, and sweet memories. References only you and I would understand, and only expressed feelings that would come from our specific relationship. You make me feel stupid when I'm around you because you're words are as if they've been read out of an award winning book about a troubled heart that found its way to love. I don't know how you do it, or what exactly it is you're doing, but please don't stop. Your charm has seem to win over my families hearts. Especially my mom, lola, and even my sister!! Which is the most hardest person to impress. You don't have to keep trying to win me over.. You should already know that you did that a long time ago.

You don't see how great full I am to have you back in my life... You make me want to show you off, but at the same time I don't because I'm selfish and just want to have you for myself.

"I would call you my 'Princess';.." Yes I do still have my tiara from gr9 :) "..say I 'Love' you; Just puppy love. But I don't think I understand what we had. I'm glad I learned from the past. I no longer greatly regret breaking up with you. I now see it was to prepare me for greater time. It took two and a half years for me to rebuild myself, to realize how much I need you. My life has changed because of you and for that I am eternally grateful." - dke

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Life has been soo good to me

Highlights from my best week(end) ever...

wed. GRADDRESS&PRACTICE
Afterskew he, serena and mark came with me to check out my grad dress for the very first time. Was nothing like the style I gave her to make but it turned out pretty nice even though it was still undone.
Headed home and donnel came over to practice for Dancity. Practiced from 5-11 and we finally had our piece made up and ready for teaching

thurs. COMMENCEMENT
After skew got ready at home, make up did and all that jazz, got picked up by derek and headed to the bell centre. On stage I found out that I won a Dogwood fine arts scholarship for $1000. I was so happy, and all I could hear was serena and my dad cheering in the audience. Although I wished my brother and sister could have made it I was happy that my dad, his gf, my mom, her bf, my lola, my bestfriend, and he were all there to support me.
Later that night we went back to my place celebrated and then serena went home. He stayed over till 2am watching "vicky christina barcelona" with me my moms and her bf. I never thought my mom could be so cool with a guy stayin over so late haha.

fri. PROMNIGHT & DRYGRAD
Jermi came over early and we got ready. Moms took pictures and we headed to meet our limo. We all went to QE (obvs) took pics and headed to vancouver convention centre. Our room was gorgeous and had an amazing view because one whole wall was glass. Jermi was being an amazing grad date. No regrets! This perfect night went on to dry grad. Las vegas baby!! Poker tables, cartoonist, sumo wrestling, blow up boxing, bun gee running, movies, fondue, mocktails, and a hypnotist! Too many deats but it was real fun.
Didn't get home till 6 am, and then I passed out!

sat. RECOVERY
Woke up at 12, went back to sleep at 3 woke up at 7. Got an email finding out I received that extra "Shirley Clements scholarship" from outbreak and got an extra 100 in my pocket. "That's so cool you get money for being awesome" hahaha rachel you're so cute! Went over to jamies house. Got home at 11 pm. He came over at 12.

sun. :) & DANCITY
He stayed till 4am. Mom was cool with it. New status :). Went to sleep & woke up at 9. Headed over to richmond and Dancity was happening. Me and donnel had over 50 people take our class! Huge success! Dj was bumpin and we all had fun. Sickstylz symphony had raised just over 1900! Thanks to all of the people who came out to support! Much love.

mon. NEWOPPORTUNITY
A little while ago I had a teaching job lined up for me. Unfortunately I had to turn it down because of skew at AI. But plan changed and I'm starting at AI in october. So in the summer I plan on getting a 2nd job. But I found out there is another teaching job available for me downtown at the scotiabank theater. If all works out well I'm going to take this opportunity and ill be a part time dance teacher. I don't want to have to keep passing up open doors like this. Thanks to marc I also got another audition lined up later this month. Life has just been soo good to me! I'm so glad I am where I am.

Schools almost over, extra money in the pocket, job opps popping up, and a new status with he. Who SAYs shts too good to be true? My life is sooo gooood and its all true! I LOVE my life :)

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Vicky Christina Barcelona

Happy at its best

2:17am

Where do I begin? Haha its so hard to see since my eyes are really puffed up right now, and my cheeks are in a manageable amount of pain due to all the smiles that were expressed voluntarily and involuntarily :) more details about that after.

It started off with commencement practice. All the grads of our class sat in our spots for the actual commencement, and then we grabbed out gowns. Everybody was full of stories and comments of high school past times and graduation. Many of the jocks stand by me saying "yo cas we got to take a picture together later" haha I enjoyed it. I have a feeling that I just might be remembered. Already just having the gown in my hand just did it for me. This is it. We're walking the stage.

Get home, get ready and get pictures taken with my loving lola <3 Derek picked me up and the next thing you know is that I'm taking pictures with all the grads I've actually talked to this year hahaha. Parents come, and so does my bestfriend, and guyfriend. There I am sitting on my ass for a good 2 hours grabbing some entertainment from antonio and joshua. Just met josh that night but we hit it off well. Slowly I start to get nervous as our line gets closer and closer to getting my steps across that stage without falling on my face. Then there I am. I see antonio walk to the end of the stage and its my turn.. "Cas_____ P.." " WOOOOOO GO CASSSS" haha I love you serena! And then as I'm about to walk off "Casandra has also won a scholarship for fine arts.." !!!!! Yeah 1000 to bank into my tuition at AI. Fck yeah!! I was so nervous about that scholarship application but I'm glad I did it. Came out to my dad, his girl, my mom, her boy, my lola, bestfriend, and him. I was a little upset my siblings couldn't make it, but they're there for me when I need them most. Didn't take much time taking pictures after cause I know ill get a bunch tomorrow at grad so we headed back to my place.

Carrying a bouquet of roses and another bouquet of flowers was a little difficult but I liked it :)

Totally satisfied with how the night went but that's just the begining. The 3 of us (me, bestfriend, and he) sat in my kitchen ate, talked, and enjoied each others company up until serena kicked it at 1030. He and I stayed talking till 1120 then we headed downstairs to cool down in the basement. Ma and bf came down aswell to watch a movie. So we watched with them. Watched one of the best movies ever and I definitely want to hit up spain to see the beautiful artwork and enjoy the way of life in culture and art over there. The way they live is so beautiful and full of passion, art, and love. I can't explain much more, its something you'll just want to make a living out of. Living a life of inspiration is soul satisfying. One day! We'll get over there.

Movie ended a bit after 2, and I'm glad you stayed till the end. Now I can't stop thinking of happy thoughts. I know corny but true. The night ended wit goodbyes and goodnights.

Blog more bout the wonderful day/night a little later. I'll SAY by the end of this weekend LOVE will come over me and stories with follow. Till then g'night!

Grad here I come :)
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