Hearing a lot of

"HE SAID..."

"SHE SAID..."

"BUT DON'T TELL THEM I TOLD YOU THAT..."

If something is known that I should know, don't tell me unless I'm allowed to know or I'm allowed to say something about it. Even if its something you think i should know the truth about, I rather not know. And if you do tell me, and its something that is effecting me, don't expect me to keep my mouth shut. You lost some-ones trust when you told me cause you broke a promise to keep your mouth shut, so it is bound to come out in some form of karma.

I just don't want to hear it, or deal with it. So i rather not know.

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IDC weekend was an eye opener. Found out a lot about the members of sickStylz, and got another source of inspo. I had a real good time. I was happy with how it all went down, with the good and the bad. It was just a perfect amount of both sides. BUT i'll save the details for my "dancelife."

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Been disconnected this whole weekend. So i haven't had a chance to read what everybody has been posting. But it looks like not a lot has changed, i'm glad i didn't miss out on that much. 

hum... i'm actually not sure where i'm going with this.

new topic 

Back to reality: 

-once we got back, it all started going down. the same bs. don't need it, don't give it to me. 

-this will be my annual day to repent  ; i'm sorry ; i'm ashamed

-BILLS BILLS BILLS

-what money?

-due dates, projects

love isn't reality, it is..

something i'm just not feeling right now. 

bad vibes 

intentions rise

damn

i just want out.

its so early right now, i haven't eaten breakfast

and i don't know what i'm saying. 

"I'm just a [girl] whose intentions are good, oh lord please don't let me be misunderstood"

TREAT YOU GOOD

Heard you and your man was beefin'

Thought I should come and see ya

To find out if you needed anything

Was wonderin' if you need a lil change

I've been knowin' you bout forever

I was thinkin if we got together

It just might be the truth

Perfect for me and you

Now looky here I got somethin for you to hold

And I don't care who may see it who may know

Cuz' I want ya so bad

And girl you know I'm a g

So I aint takin no for an answer Cuz' I would like to see if we could

[Chorus]

Kiss a lil bit

Hug a lil bit

Touch a lil bit

Maybe rub a lil bit

I'm the man of your dreams you know that im me

Baby can't you see I treat you good

Just a little

Kiss you on your lips

The ones past your hips I wanna keep it hood

Just a little

The one like he aint

Do things that he can't I wanna say

I like it I like it I like it I like it I like it girl

Lemme hear you say

I need it I need it I need it I need it I need it boy

[Verse 2]

Is it wrong to feel like this

Is it bad to have you here

For you I have much respect I don't want you to regret

Steppin up at how you do

Even though you know it's the right move

Even though you know it's an upgrade

Even though you know if you know you wanna stay

Looky here I got somethin' for you to hold

And I don't care who may see or who may know

Cuz' I want you so bad ooh

Girl you know I'm a g

I aint takin' no for an answer

Cuz I wanna see

[Chorus]

Kiss a lil bit

Hug a lil bit

Touch a lil bit

Maybe rub a lil bit

I'm the man of your dreams and all that you need

Baby can't you see

I treat you good

Just a little

Kiss you on your lips

The ones past your hips

I wanna keep it hood

Just a little

The one like he aint

Do things that he can't

I wanna say

I like it I like it I like it I like it I like it girl and if you nedd it

Lemme hear you say I need it I need it I need it I need it I need it boy

[Bridge]

Do you have the time to stay tonight

Ohhh ohhh ohhh baby

Do you have the time to stay for life

Woahh Cuz our lovin was good

Girl by now you should know

There's no way

I'm gonna let you go

I don't mean to bring the pressure

But girl I'll be a fool if I up and just

Let you go

Girl you know

I wanna treat you good

[Chorus]

Just a little

Kiss you on your lips

The ones past your hips

I wanna keep it hood

Just a little the one like he aint

Do things that he can't baby

I wanna say I like it I like it I like it I like it I like it girl and if you need it

Lemme hear you say I need it I need it I need it I need it I need it

Boy do you have the time to stay tonight do you have the time to stay for life

K.I.S.S.

Past few days have been reaaal good to me. I'm not even sure why, but my cheeks have been hurting cause i've been smiling so much. It feels good, it feels so damn good. Maybe cause the suns been peeking through, maybe cause schools been light, maybe cause my moms been understanding me, maybe cause IDCs coming up! Oh mann LG... as in Life's Good! : )

I'm seriously loving my Lit class. We have one of the best teachers. Mrs. Winters. First class I had with her I was very intimidated! Not going to lie, she looks like an evil cartoon character.. like she could be Cruela Devil. She even does the red nail polish and sometimes lipstick. She's def not afraid to call you out on ANYTHING! But over all shes real chill. After she's done teaching us what we have to learn she'll give us a break. She'd be like "okay well i don't want to start anything new so you guys can just chill, just don't kill each other" and there would still be like 20mins left of class haha. But no even the work is pretty fun, but at the same time we learn what we have to know. We get the best of both worlds.

Last day we had our student teacher come in as well. Our group of 3 had to understand this poem, really didn't catch my interest, it was the end of the day, and I just wasn't getting it. We were going through it with him, and i kept over analyzing everything. That's when he said it. K.I.S.S. which meant Keep It Simple Stupid. Haha he said the phrase first so i was a little dumbfounded when he called me stupid, but then he said "K.I.S.S." and explained. Haha, i thought it was pretty interesting, and very catchy. Oh lit12.

Blk B / Dance Elite / Spare ... what ever you want to call it, is getting more interesting every block. A few blks back we started to bring back old games. WAIT hold up, even before that we had a huge rant about "pickuplines" haha check out the video on FB! But anyways i brought up the "BEAT 1" clapping game. We ( who ever knew this game) tried to remember all the beats and taught it to the rest of the blk. Then the next blk we had we learned the rest of it, and also brought up the "AHHH BIIIG BOOTY BIG BOOTY BIG BOOTY UH HUH AHH YEAH BIG BOOTY UH HUH" clapping game. Hahaha so fun. We had the biggest circle made in the hub and just were yelling like we didn't care. Mann our thighs were hurting from slapping them. GOOD STUFF.

ANOTHER REASON WHY I ENJOY WORKING AT BIGRIDGE:
So I was bussing Friday night, and this family of 6 comes in. They are one of our usuals so I've seen them come in before. And so Kaela (one of our hostesses) seats them down, and passes by me and says "those kids love you," and I was confused. I didn't get how they "loved me" haha. There are 2 little boys (twins) around the age of 4/5, and 2 little girls at the age of 6/7. As i was bussing around the tables around them i noticed them looking at me smiling and giggling. I thought it was cute, but a bit awkward haha. So i went to go run some food to their table. As i did so their dad spoke up and was like "you see these 2 girls, and these 2 boys here? Well they love you. As soon as we walked in they were like 'shes here, shes working again!'" Throughout the night the one of the twins kept eyeing me throughout the night and smiling and waving. I thought it was the most cutest things! Then as i came by the table his dad was like "okay go give it to her" and he gave me a flower he made out of the Wiki sticks we put in the kids menu boxes. He was so sweet! I had the biggest "awe" look on my face said my thank you and gave him a hug. After i did that his sisters were laughing and said "ha ha your so happy" and were teasing their little brother. As they were leaving their family was at the door and the little boy came up to me again, and his dad gave him that extra push once again to say what he had to say. So the little boy came to me and asked me if i was going to be working again next week. HAHA IT WAS SO DAMN ADORABLE! I was so sad because i had to tell him that I wasn't because i was going to be in Seattle, but i told him that i would be there next week. Again his sisters were teasing and said "haha you got sad!" and they too made me little gifts out of their Wiki sticks. It really made my night. Haha that little boy is going to be one smooth guy with the ladies :) haha!



SHOUT OUT TO MY
SHORTIE BOO BIG BURR**
a.k.a. RAWB ,
waahhhssssup?!
thanks for not coming with me to get my shoes
and going to the states! Hum.. so much for making
your tattoo! Haha jk. KAY happy?!
better bee hummmmmm


saved the best for last:
*I.D.C. IN 5 DAYS
*NO SCHOOL FRIDAY
*SEATTLE ALL WEEKEND
*DANCE DANCE DANCE
*SICKSTYLZ 1st TIME OUT THERE
*DUO [ CAS&CARMEN ]
*FRESHGROOVE&PRAISETEAM
**ITS GONNA BE HELLA FUN**

Sup love?

Today I was late for skew. WHY? Well cause I thought that I pressed snooze but accidentally turned it off, oops. We had early dismissal today, so I was pretty happy. Double blocks of Art, lunch, and then double blocks of Photography. I love wednesdays.

Art was productive. I stuck to the usual routine. Come in, sit at the tables, set my stuff down, grab my piece, my tools, the ink and that extra sheet of paper, plug in my ipod, check my phone, msg back anyone who's msged me, and start working. Once I start I try not to get myself destracted cause I don't like starting a project and then loosing concentration. I'd had a few mistakes on this piece already because of my carelessness and misconcentration. But sht happens. Can't wait till its done. I'm actually pretty proud of it :)
SO FAR THIS IS WHAT IT COMES DOWN TO...






LUNCH PERIOD : was spent in the dance room. Riz & I just kinda chilled, listened to music, and caught up with our sittuations, kind of.. haha.

Photography class has been real productive now. I got a lot of shots taken for the "ME & MY WORLD" project we've been working on since the begining of the semester. I guess i could say i'm half way done, but I still got lots of editing to do. Its amazing what you can do on adobe. I've learnt how to use the auto____ buttons today. Haha one of the most easiest things and I didn't really know it existed till today. Makes life a lot easier. We have to take at least 12 different photos, edit them and make sure they have a certain photocomposition to go with it. I've got 5 completed so far. The other pictures are already taken, they've just got to be edited.

Its pretty cool when you look at the before and afters right beside one another. There's one that isn't up here because a certain someone isn't comfortable with it being posted up. Haha i'll get it up eventually but for now these 4 will be available to view.





AFTER SKEW headed to guildford. Missed my 1st bus cause it came early, and what do you know, it was SNOWING. I wouldn't be surprised if we had a tornado come in. Weathers that messed up. But I caught the next 341GUILDFORD, half an hour later. Got to JH by 3:20 or something. Funniest thing happened on the way. I was so stuck on my crackberry that I wasn't watching where I was walking, and then me and my umbrella crashed into a tree that was very low! Haha I felt so embarassed i stopped and looked around to see if anyone saw me. HAHA nobody did! Well at least from what I saw. I rushed into JH cause it was so cold and walked into my exschool. Ahh I miss is so much. Did what we do best. Stayed in the caf and chilled there for quite some time. We played MAFIA. Haha I was the mafia almost everytime! I don't like being mafia, i couldn't come up with good reasons for why i wasn't the mafia haha.





Oh well. Ended up heading to Guildford, eating in the foodcourt, then headed home. Mom didn't know i ate out, so she made me eat again! HOLY, my body cannot take that much food in one hour, but i did it.
I got to stop stuffing myself and indulging in every thing i crave..... CHOCOLATE. Haha everyday.. its horrible. BUT ITS OKAY cause i'm starting to "workout".. not really, just kinda do some things in the morning or before i sleep. I stay fit somehow. But one day my motabolizm will drop. But thats not today so who really cares? :)

HAHA k BYE

Right now

Very into house music right now. Its all I hear at home cause of my brother. But I love it. Its so easy to pop to, actually free style in general. Yeah, house music... Its good!

Saturday was fun?
details and pictures will come soon enough.

Right now my body feels all shaky. Like I drank an energy drink. But I didn't I just was stretching for a really long time and I feel very strange. Awkward actually. Guess I should sleep/ rest. Bye

Right now

Very into house music right now. Its all I hear at home cause of my brother. But I love it. Its so easy to pop to, actually free style in general. Yeah, house music... Its good!

Saturday was fun?
details and pictures will come soon enough.

Right now my body feels all shaky. Like I drank an energy drink. But I didn't I just was stretching for a really long time and I feel very strange. Awkward actually. Guess I should sleep/ rest. Bye

No more

first and foremost, i want to say that i need a major update. but times not on my side at the moment so i got to put that aside for now.

So here it is. Yeah, this is no more. Not saying that i want this. I don't want it to be like this. I want it to be the exact opposite. But forces aren't going to let that happen. I never wanted it to be going down this road, but here i am walking and trying to hard not to look back. I still do and i let little things slide by and excuse some circumstances, but i guess i shouldn't be. You know it too, that's why you do the things you do. Its better that your not letting me in. Even though i wish you would, i'm glad you don't. I fully understand the situation. The way I'm handling it though is another story. Been strong enough to save that roll of toilet paper i would have wasted and bathed in while i slept. Been strong enough to bite my tongue instead of say all the things running through my mind. Been strong enough to keep going with my daily routines with out letting myself get sidetracked by this dilemma running through the back of my mind, and the bottom of my heart. Happiness wont come in on its own. I got to let it in and not block it out with this "lock of problem" i hold the key to. I really hope you know why i did this. Why i'm doing this. I don't want this, but its just how it has to be, unless we really want to keep sinking into this mess of re-runs. Cause if we kept going we'd be locked in infinity. We both know that. Well at least i think we do...

I do miss "[that] type love" (shihan). Remember when you showed me that? And that time you also showed me "every woman." back when things were simple, things were sweet, things were happy. That was then. This is now, and that's what i miss. Or or remember when your parents gave us that talk in their room? Or even when you picked me up every morning before school. Or how about that time "CitySand" was born. Damn.. okay okay i got to stop, i know. Okay hold up, last one...
When people used to ask us how we made our relationship look so good. No drama, no stress. PDA was set at perfect pace. People envied our relationship. We held it down, you got me, and i got you. Or had..

But no more. We know our place. We're friends. We're good. I got to understand that meaning of friendship and hope i don't cross any lines. Haha it happens when you let your feelings get carried away. This is whats right, and what has to be done.

Still do
Hate you.

SUNday

One of my favorite days of the week. WHY?

Because:

its SUNday

Sickstylz Practice

& cause its the end of the week.. or is it the beginning? humm, either way its good.

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I did it!

I pulled out the summer attire! 

Nike blazers
TR shorts
AA white tee
La Riva jacket
H&M shades
Hairs tied up, ipod plugged in

I'm set. What's up summer?

SO FAR SO GOOD...

(i haven't been able to finish my thoughts in my blogs latley. Why? cause i would have to get off the computer, but i'm going to get it done this time.)


All day, i knew it was going to suck, but at least i didn't feel sad. Not until now at least. Slow songs start playing, but i can't seem to turn it off. This is torture, but i'm holding up. No tears so far, no major pain, just a bit on the down side thats all. Only an hour and a half left...

Woo saaahh, i got this.

How do i describe my emotion in one word?

*SIGH*

yup, that would be the best word.
Not letting it happen, nuh uh.
Okay, good job cas. Still an hour and a half to go...





sucks.

a bit of sun, a bit of sand, a bit of city, a bit of avacado, a bit of chocolate. Sall i need. Yeah



PS: "HE's just not that into me"

i mean her ;)

GOOD MOVIE - very "chick flick" but also funny
WELL RECOMENDED

Drama Love & 'Lationships.

SHIT WAS GOOD up until yesterday. 1st week of school, i didn't miss a class for the entire week. But friday morning i was late for class (first omen). 2nd block comes around, (dance elite/spare) and we did sht all. As this spare goes on, we all got to talking. Then i found out some bad news (2nd omen). This news really killed it for me.

DIDn'T FINISH THIS BLOG EITHER

FLASHBACK

"And uhh any way you can catch me any day sippin' hennessay.. // .. I'm sitting on the side of the curb with a pocket of herb.."

Was sitting here with Carmen looking for some songs. Thats when we came across this song right here "Make it hot" by Nicole ft. Missy E. This was one of the first songs where i made myself learn the lady rap parts. Haha those lyrics will be forever memorized by heart, seriously. Even though i've known this song since.. gr.5 (about 7 years ago) i've never seen the music video for it till this very day....

DIDn'T FINISH THIS BLOG

INDULGE; THESUN&AVOCADO

woke up underneath a pile of unfolded laundry. why? because i didn't want to put my clean clothes on the floor, and i was too tired after work to fold it all. throughout the day i spent majority of the time organizing my whole room. my dunnies are finally back on display, no more hiding in that shoe box, you can see the light. speaking of light, the SUN WAS GORGEOUS today. the whole time i was cleaning my room i was just listening to music with my windows wide open enjoying the presence of the sunlight shining in my room. you could imagine how good it felt to feel the sun again. it really is almost a cure for my emotions. i know its cliche, but I LOVE THE SUN! ahhhhh 

after all the organizing and folding, and 'advantage taking of the sun' i headed to work. dressed up all pretty cause i was hostesing tonight. as i was standing there looking like a hostess, i was watching the food go by, and i saw that salad i had last week. the one with the chicken, goat cheese, and avocado! then i started to crave avocado. well not just avocado, avocado milkshake! so i asked graem (floor manager) if i could buy a full avocado from the kitchen. Head chef said yes, for 2bucks! kinda expensive, but at the end of the night graem didn't make me pay for it haha. So i asked the bartender if he could blend it up for me. you know, avocado, milk, and ice. then once he gave it to me i added 7 packs of sugar haha :) i know its a lot but its so good, if you tasted it you wouldn't complain! everybody in the kitchen, and almost all of the staff was wondering what the heck i was doing. making an avocado into a drink?! haha ohh white people.  they thought i was crazy and that it would not taste very good. HA i proved them wrong. they got all curious on me and gave in for a taste. even boss chris liked it. it was actually better then i usually make it. i think it was the blender. either way it tasted good, and this little asian didn't look so crazy to the caucasians anymore :) and thats the moral of the story. 

.. haha JK

TIMES ARE GOOD

WOW 1st semester is DONE. Have you noticed how sunny it was a few days ago? It honestly felt like summer. It made my spirit just lift up throughout the day. And now that we are currently going through the semester break (no school right now) i've been feeling like its summer. Done with school, no homework, or test to be worrying about, doing sht all during the day, and just going to work. It's all making me anticipate summer. By that time i'll be out of high school. OH MY, i hardly look like I'm out of elementary ha ha. But its all good. 2nd semester is going to be FABULOUS! History- not a problem, art- "[i] can do what ever [i] like", dance- should i even explain?, and art again - :) .  Times are good.

my phone is pretty out dated (1st blackberry created, you know the one that looks like a blue brick ;) and my plan is ending on the 25th of nov. SO i got it renewed today, so i have a new data plan by mid-night, and my new phone (bb curve8900) should be coming in the next 3-5 bidnuss days. YUP. after 3 years, of switching from a silver razor, or a pink razor, to this outdated blackberry. FINALY!

BTW "LOVELY BONES" by ALICE SEBOLD,  is such a good read! 

WELL RECOMMENDED!

DIET - mine is horrible. i've been eating A LOT lately, its not exactly effecting me, but i know the stuff i've been eating is just not healthy. You know, pizza, chicken chow mein, high5 (chocolate cake), and all that BigRidge kind of food. And i eat so much of it. I feel that i should cut a few things out, cause its just not healthy! Everyones saying that one day it will hit me, and i'm just waiting for that day. Maybe then i'll actually create a diet for myself haha. BUT until then i'm going to enjoy my fatty foods while i can :)

i cannot get enough of my high5 cake. everybody at work always asks me "Cas, are you getting your usual tonight?" and for a while our restaurant ran out of my cake! They told me that the restaurant never used to run out of the high5s until i started working there. Haha i've had a piece of high5 cake almost every shift i've worked. Its horrible. Haha :) Oh well.

OK so listen and watch this.. SO VERY GOOD :) makes me happy haha. ONE

TRAVIS MCCOY, BE MY VALENTINE?

SO NO, i didn't go to lilwayne&tpains concert. Yeah i missed gymclassheroes :(
when will they ever come back? I don't know, but i hope its soon.

Isn't he just ... <3, yeah he is =D


was searching up Rles. and found her. Shes so cute, so good, and i'm so jealous haha
but i love this video. kind of "addicted"... if you were a Ryanleslie fan you would get it ;)

CHECK IT OUT.

currently chilling at work sitting in table C. Yeah my table :) haha and I'm waiting for my food to arrive. It is my first time odering this 7oz. Halibut so we'll see how this all works out. I actually haven't hosted in a while. I got so used to busing it was hard for the first hour alone. Hosted with Richelle tonight. Always fun cause she's hillarious, especially when she zones out! Always makes me laugh. Its was busy tonight , as every Saturday night is. Huge line at the door but obviously Richelle and i ripped it up. Shoot we could handle anything. So there's a new busset in town. She's in her 20s I'm guessing and there is just one thing that bugs me about her. She does my pet peeve! You know, when a stranger calls you "sweetie" or "hunnie"... IT just REALLY gets to me. Its not like you really know me that well so why are you calling me that? I don't understand! Other then that one thing she is extremely nice and sweet.

So I got my dinner. Ummm sauteed halibut is a very yummy! And these mash potatoes are buttered up like crazy! Sooooo goooood! Who ever made this made it with love. I can taste it! Hahaha

This really is a useless blog to read but I am inasanely bored.
One of the best things about working in a restaurant is the unlimited drinks! Fricken icetea all day non-stop! I love it!!

I'm in a good mood :)

This fish is really good.

I feel like dancing.

Haha ok I don't think this specific blog could be any more lame. So good bye.


Oh and yeah I have another blogspot! Its not replacing this one. This blog (selah) is for my blogs that are more about daily ish. You know what ever pops up in my head kinda ish. And my new blog (dancelife) is well basically my blogs about what's going on with my dance life haha pretty self explanitory but yet I still explained it anyways, wooow lame! Haha so check it out, it looks kinda cool but its still in the making!

This is my dancelife! Enjoy

MAIN LINE // LAST CALL

So after 3+ months of working at BIG RIDGE i've only recently learned the meanings of "Mainline" and "Last call." Well actually, last call is kind of a give in, but okay i've just recently found of the meaning of mainline. I thought they meant the same thing, and just had like a fancier name or something. But i was wrong. Mainlines when the grill is pretty much down. So no steaks or anything like that will be cooked after mainline has been called. For people that don't know that already haha. Stupid intro for a blog, but w/e :)

Yesterday Jan 3 09 :
My day off oh work. Thank goodness cause last weekend i worked from friday to monday. ERRDAY OF THE DAMN WEEKEND. So it was nice to have a bit of weekend, even though its winter break. :) So I got up, and went on the computer. Couple friends from work wanted to eat out. Where did we go? What do you know, to WORK! Haha yeah we ate at BigRidge. I guess i didn't mind because i didn't have to work, and since its literally only an 8 min walk from my house. I didn't have plans until later that night anyways. After LINER i went home. Basement is pretty much finished now. Our theater is now working (or supposed to be, but my brother messed up the projector) and the furniture is all in place.

Today Jan 4 09 :
Woke up around 1020, convinced mother to let me go take another class at harbour. Met up with Marc, and we took Eric's hip hop class. He made his routine to a new song by Mims, and most of it was krump. Hella fun. Worked my body like crazy. After class Marc & I headed to the Scocia bank dance centre. We were just taking on of the classes so the one we were on time for was Popula's class. My muscles are kinda sore from poppin' and my arm muscle feels messed because i hit it to hard. Guess my little body isn't as well shaped for poppin' like it was before haha. It was cool seeing the Groovy G's again. I'm surprised they remember me.. they noticed i got shorter :(... well i'm not sure if its true, but thats what everyone says when i haven't seen them in a long time. Populas class was good, but i think it would have been better to take Jr Boogaloo's class due to his creativeness with choreo. A little more widely ranged.

I love taking drop ins. Its like.. when someone feels frustrated about something like they just got into a fight, or something just ruined their day and they need to go out for a drive/walk or eat .. well thats like me but instead i use drop in classes for that sense of relief and some sort of that sense of "high." It just feels so damn good.

This winter break i've taken 5 classes.
2 at harbour with carmen
1 at drive
1 other one at harbour
& 1 at the scotia dance centre

GREAT PLACES TO BE PEOPLE, GET OUT THERE!!

A total of $77. Some people might think that thats money waisted, but thats $77 dollars worth of 5 classes well spent. It all depends on how much the spender enjoys their class and takes as much out of it as they can. & thats exactly what i did. YAY ME!

I can't get enough of this dance life. No matter how much ish it gets me in. Its ALL WORTH IT.


Speaking of things being "all worth it." I think i must lay some things down.
Sht keeps happening huh? All of this is pretty bad, but we've gone through worst. But this is still pretty bad. We'll get past it. Actually you know what. This is one of the worst that we're going through. Maybe not situational wise.. but "mentally" wise. We've pushed and pulled and yet we're still hanging on. For a little bit i though this thread was going to break. But nope. I was wrong. This isn't a piece of thread. This is one thin ass wire, that looks like a thread, but just isn't going to break. This thing we've got going on is to strong for it to be broken. Like i've said before, this is all pretty damn bad right now, but it will all be worth it. We both know that. We just have to make it like that. And try and keep it like that. You know, make things work. I'll be working on myself.. my bad unnecessary habits, but as long as we know that we're both down for each other, then i think we'll be just fine. Our worst might already be behind us, so lets keep our head up, and keep looking forward. It'll all be good. You'll see.


[take a listen]

Soo young, but soo good <3

js: thanks for showing me

2nd day of 2009

So my 2nd day of 09' went almost according to plan. Woke up pretty early and headed to drive dance centre to take stu's class at 12. On the way Jel picked me up and we skytrained together since he had work. I was supposed to go with Serena but I forgot to call cause I didn't think she was actually going to come. Then sleepy head Shellaine wasn't awake yet. So I went to the class by mysewf. Once I got in and there was like 15 other people doing the class. Intimidation... Yezzzur. Stu's choreography was hella fun! There wasn't any class after so we got to just mess around. After the class we ( Stu, Leslie, and one other girl that was in the class ) went to eat at moxies downtown. Stu had to pick up a couple friends from the train station. When he came back he came back with Joe and Mike from Supreme Soul. Yeah so the six of us were just having dinner at moxies! Yeah! Haha I was pretty stunned but it was cool. =)

Got on the skytrain and headed home. I got home at 5 and changed as fast as I could and got to work at 5:05 haha late 5 mins but nobody saw ;). Work was pretty slow for a friday night. A lot of the times I had nothing to do, not even fold napkins we already had to many. So after a slack night at work I got home at 11 something and then passed out very quickly cause I was exaughsted.

So for the 2nd day of 09 it was pretty damn good :)

First day of the year

So I'm sitting in this chair watching the tv ( sorta ) listening to michael Jackson, just chilling and thinking about what I'm going to do tmr.
today I didn't do anything besides going to my cousins house and chilling. But tomorrrow I'm going to take stews class at drive and then I'm going out with my dad to buy him a fish and coral for his tank at home. Then I got work at 5 prolly till 9 or 10. Then if I'm allowed I'll be heading over to neks place to " eat cup cakes " =D haha.

Peace out 08! You won't be missed.... That much.

2008 was filled with good and bad. But it seems like bad has over powered yet again.

Let's try to remember some good first.
Late cab rides home :)
Late nights with the "assholes"
Late dance sessions in random spots
Late fights at night that ended in the hardest but best ways <3
Sickstylz outtings, practices, and parties.


Haha I can't remember anything else thats worth mentioning


So if I start mentioning bad things ill be on here forever.(okay maybe used a hyperbole but you know what I mean .
again peace out 08' you won't be missed... that much.



09 will be my year to gain my wings.