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One more day and I get to meet her and see him once again. I need to get out of here for a while and be with him. Saying "I miss you" so many times doesn't help very much until you physically see the person once and for all.
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You know the saying "its funny cause its true" ?
Yeah.
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Its nice when a complete stranger helps you out. (RAK: Random Act of Kindness)
Its rude when you ignore someone.
Its cool when you have someone there, when you need them most or when they say just the right thing ("Who else can ...")
Its horrible when you run out of options
Its distracting when you come across immaturity and insecurity when walking the path of seriousness.
Its annoying when people don't know what they're talking about especially when they haven't gone thru anything close to the sht they're talking about.
Its great when a third eye realizes the situation and understands you.
Its perfect when you realize you're better then this.
"I can see clearly now the rain is gone."
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Carmen you're finally 17. "Stupid LGs" ! Haha you're funny sweetie.
We've been dancing for more then half our lives, and for the first few years we we're always competing against each other. So many solo dance competitions we went head to head and then the Big Show came along and we got to dance side by side. YET we became one of the main attractions and yet again it was Cas vs. Carmen durring the PNE show. Haha "ain't no other man.." good times my lady. We found our struggling dance lives in the same sittuations and we moved away from the drama and somehow ended up continuing dancing together through sickstylz. And what do you know, we finally got to a duo together. Yeah, no more Cas vs. Carmen.. now its just Cas&Carmen. We were so close to becoming Embraces.. Hahahaha! Stupid Serena had to get her braces off, what a dick.. jk :) But seriously being your partner through dance, and us being Surrey Girls (thank god :P ) we became really close. You were, and are one of my closest girlfriends. We could basically say that we grew up together through dance. You're my dance sister, and forever will be! Thanks a lot hun for that conversation we had tonight. Carmen you're such a great friend. How could I possible just stop dancing now.. thats like breaking up with you! I can't do that! But what we did talk about earlier .. I ment all of it. So I am going to slow it down, but i'll stay dancing. Thanks for the advice hun, and ALL of the girl talks we had at my house and yours! I hope you enjoyed your day as much as you thought you would. I love you Carmen. You know i'm always here for you.
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9 more days and ill be seeing you again.
Damn T.O. is going to be crazy.
You're a cutie!
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Happy Birthday Daddy
"Are you okay to drunk?.. Are you okay to drive?"
Haha daddy you're so funny!
My father is now 49 and he's still doing well style wise. For his birthday he asked us to but him clothes from H&M. And that's all he wanted. Yet I just wrote in a card I got him and we all put money in haha.
Love you dad!
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1st night
"Baby you're, you're the reason that I'm smiling all the time. You are my sunshine."
Its true. & the first night your gone its hell over here. 13 more days till I join you over there. Then I'm on vacation for a good 10 days, thank goodness. I need this.
desert&theview
Another good night.
After falling asleep w/you I woke up at 445 only to see the bed empty. I missed you by 45mins. For the rest of the night -I had an uncomfortable sleep. I got to undo getting used to you here with me till 4 in the am. No more loving late nights after the 11th and after T.O.
Ps. MsAnon if you're reading this check the comments on the post you commented on.
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18 years later
Woke up did my nails, heard the doorbell ring. Mom answered; it was Kelvin. He told me to get my ass ready cause my first surprise was incorporated with an appointment at 2. Showered, dressed into my brand new dress I bought the other day & got into the car. Traffic was growing on the highway so Kelvin called this man we had an appointment with. On the way Kelvin says to me "anything I show you, you have to pick out, no matter what you can't say no." In my head I'm thinking that its some sort of ride we're taking and he's talking to the driver. Little did I know I was to later find out that I was soo wrong. We got to this place downtown that read "142 DYNAMO Art Association". Earlier at my house while I was getting ready we talked about how my favorite artist, Peter Taylor, didn't have anymore pieces for sale since Kelvin tried to buy one for me as a gift. So while we're in front of this Art Association I'm thinking that I get to pick out some art supplies for myself. We're earlier then we expected to be so we're standing out side just waiting for this man that Kelvin was conversing with during the ride over. We see this man come over on a bike, he gets off and says "Hey you kelvin?" Kelvin replies with a yes and puts out his hand and says to me "Hi, I'm Peter" .. And right then I froze up and all I'm thinking of is OMG IS THIS REALLY PETER FCKING TAYLOR?!?!
He opens up the door and we head upstairs while I'm grabbing Kelvin's arm and you could just see in my eyes that I was screaming inside! We get upstairs and all I see is canvases, paints, and Peter Taylor's art space and work. He starts open boxes and continues to layout his pieces and Kelvin says to me "So which one do you like?" I got to pick out one of Peter Taylor original pieces for myself.
The whole time I was watching him take out each frame I was just stunned and totally speechless.. I don't ever think I've felt like that before. It was as if I saw a celebrity because to me he is one. Just an amazingly nice guy that happens to create masterpieces which I just adore! I finally got to pick out one that really caught my eye. All in one I could see the body language as life that had a sort of confusion but showed calmness and happiness at the same time. Using mixed media just summed it up and I knew that was the one I wanted and got. Peter wrapped it up himself and gave it to me. Being a big dorky fan I asked if I could take a picture with the artist, and being as nice as he was he did not have a problem with it at all. He let us out and for the rest of the day I had a permanent stain of a smile on my face just blown away by what had just happened! I was ready to just go home because that was the most amazingly thoughtful and nice that was of Kelvin to do. Yet it was just the beginning.
Next we drove closer to PC and parked. This next surprise was just as thoughtful as the first. Kelvin knew how much I adored roller blading so he took me to get a new pair of blades for the both of us. We headed down by the sea and started blading the sea wall. Something I always wanted todo but never got around to doing it. The sun was being generous and wasn't too hot for us to be out skating around.
The views we're gorgeous and the conversation and just time spent together was a heart full. We ended up at English Bay and decided to stick around there to relax and enjoy the sun calmly. Enough sun was soaked up so we were back on our feet but now walking up Robson on our way to Mikes house where Kelvin got to meet Leo, Virnie, Rawb, and obviously Mike. They approved of him and I was happy haha. Finally we got back to the car and headed to Langley where we dined at the one and only Olive Garden. Had delicious appys and a well prepared steak and pasta meal.
During the dinner Peters name came up in conversation again because I was still stunned by what happened earlier that morning. Kelvin had given me his number and I decided to send him a text msg. The only other communication that has ever been between me and Peter was on myspace about a year ago. I tagged him in a picture because I was wearing one of his shirts and he commented on it "nice shirt, cute girl ;)" and that made me happy and became something I would not forget. But I'm sure he sees things like that all the time, so here I am thinking he's not going to remember who I am. And I go off sending this text that's just saying thank you for having me and my bf come down to your studio, it was a pleasure, etc etc. A couple mins later I receive a text back from him saying
"No problem at all. I'm glad you like my work. Its a very generous gift I hope you enjoy it for years to come. You look familiar, myspace?"
OH MY GOODNESS he remembered me! I tried to keep my cool after freaking out in the restaurant ,smiling till my cheeks hurt and staring at kelvin in amazment! I send a msg back saying yeah I can't believe you remember, I didn't think you would. And his respond was...
"I thought that was you. You smile with your whole self, its memorable. You two should find me on facebook and I'll keep you posted on shows"
Right then and there my heart melted and I just became the happiest girls in the world. I let my self cool down before I sent another msg so I wouldn't sound like a total dork. I told him that he was really sweet to say that and blah blah blah. O I did end up adding him on fb and he greeted me another happy birthday.
We finaly headed back to my place around 11 where Serena and Mark stopped by to give me a cake and made me blow out candles :) My last gift was given to me by Kelvin but this one I already knew I was getting because he made me pick it out. This gorgeous purse from roots. Still he managed to add in a surprise to that one too, and inside the bag that I picked out he had picked out another purse and gave that to me too. My boyfriend has good taste. But my most favorite gift of all was his card. A card that opened up 4 bears long which had Kelvin's lovely heartfelt words written inside just for me. I don't get why he's so good with words. I can never stop reading all the things he's ever written to me over and over. From yearbook pages to little notes in my planner to birthday cards like this one. I'm in awe every time no matter how man times I've read the same passages.
He stayed the night until 5am. I'm glad my mom doesn't mind him over that late. Or early. Everything was just amazing. I love meaningful gifts the most. I love surprises. I love my boyfriend.
So grateful to have someone like you in my life.
"I know I know I know"
From hundreds of miles you cry like a baby
You plead with me, shout, scream, tell me I'm staying
I know I know I know, I'm still your love
Back from the last place that I wanted to fake you
Laugh with me, shout, scream now tell me you're staying
I know I know I know, you're still my love
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you
Box after box and you're still by my side
The weather is changing and breaking my stride
I know I know I know, it's just this day
House after house, just like car after car
You see club after club and it all seems so far
I know I know I know what else are we here for
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you
Stick your hands inside of my pockets
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all
Last night I was writing about you
I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you
I know I know I know, you're still my love
I wake up to the sound of you working
You're one room right over, stressing and loving me
I know I know I know, be still my love
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you
Stick your hands inside of my pockets
Keep them warm while I'm still here
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all
Stick your heart inside of my chest
Keep it warm here while we rest
Tell them this love hasn't changed me, hasn't changed me at all
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me & you
The same as I love you, you'll always love me too
This love isn't good unless it's me and you
-TEGAN & SARA
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You're leaving way sooner then I hope you would. & these couple days are just a taste of what september will be like. "I know i know i know, its just this day" ... i really want T.O. to happen. I've got high hopes.
Ilovesurpises
Yup sorry to have to choose favorites but my most favorite gift was the 3huge canvases and paint bottles I got from Kathleen and Kaley! Just what I needed!
All the other gifts were amazing though. Since just about everyone's gifts were just more then a present to put in a box. They all had some sort of meaning behind it. Paints, dunnies, make-your-own munnies etc etc.. <3
I enjoyed every bit of the debut, but the beginning was hella stressful. I'm so glad its all over now! Finally have time to get out of the house, go out, take classes, and enjoy the sun again. No more planning no more practices.. Though those were fun :).. And no more stress!
More time for me and my baby.. which was the photographer for this picture up there. Yeah not a great photographer but he gets the idea ;P
Can't wait for my actual birthday! Omgosh more surprises then yay!
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...said love.
PC: Hi, my names PC.
Kelvin: I'm Kelvin, but you can call me Edwards Kelvin.
As our conversation goes on with different names for our different sides of personality...
Douglas/ the one I have yet to fully meet because he only shows face to the ones he can fully let in.
Kelvin/ the one that is a stud but a total dork/nerd at the same time "I'm not going to lie" ;) & the very one that fell for Cas
Edwards-Kelvin (*cough cough* Edward-Cullin)/ the one that tries to be suave and seductive.. Aka mr pepe le pa**** haha!
Casandra/ the one that is overly ticklish and giggles at every touch. Especially around the neck!
Cas/ the one that stole Kelvins heart in grade 8 "the first time I saw her was the last time I saw my heart" haha! Also the one that's like Casandra just not ticklish and like PC but not as.. Yeah.
PC/(BG history of where the name originated from: t'was once Kelvin and Malcolms nickname for Cas but became name for a certain personality) the one that's not PDA disapproving. (She only does come out in private though..)
Kelvin: I'm not going to lie, I do like Cas a lot more.
PC: Oh really? Well she's one lucky girl.
Kelvin: I actually think that I might love her, but I'm afraid.
PC: Why afraid?
Kelvin: Because I'm afraid that I might be in love with her...
[Conversation carried on with PC spoiling Cas' secret on how she feels the same way he does..]
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He...said love. From that moment I looked at him different. The way I didn't think I would look at him because I've gone through that look once before but I didn't think I could give that look to anyone else. I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to fall in love. That my first love could never be compared. Though my first love will always be my first love and will always have that special part of me I also learned that when you've lost that love you could find it again one day. I think I found mine today. And I knew because at that moment "nothing even [mattered] at all..[His] love makes me feel ten feet tall without it I'd go through withdrawal 'cause nothing even matters at all".
I really didn't think I could ever love anyone like I did my first love.. But you're definitely showing me there's hope. But I'm really going to be going through withdrawal after Aug11. Cause really who's going watch movies in the basement with me my mom and bruce and then stay to keep me up till 3am. And then who's going to have to wake me up at 4am just so I could let you out of my house since you don't have a key.. Yet. And who's going to come over and play NHL with gino and chad while I have girl time with carmen? Who's going to bring me roots pants? Who's going to call me beautiful after a sweet simple kiss? Who's going to do all that & so much more? No one but Douglas Kelvin Edwards could do that..
So you better do what you say and come down as much as you can, but still stay focused with school.
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The night ended with...
Kelvin: You know I meant every word I said
Cas: so did I.
I guess I really did want you to just SAY LOVE.
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"Dora!"
I miss baby girl so much. She's so grown now.
Sorry I can't be there to see you grow into a little lady..
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Not having it..
Ahh unnecessary fighting between mom & dad.. JUST GET ALONG ALREADY!
FUCK IT! I'm calling it a night
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060709-070709
After teaching my first dance class of the summer @ the Scotiabank Dance Centre (which was indeed a success :) I walked out at 9:50 into the dark and rainy streets. & what do I see? Kelvin crossing the street with the umbrella in one hand and flowers in the other. It was a comforting sight to see after being so nervous and on the toes the whole day about teaching. He knew I've never eaten at Steffos before so he surprised me by taking me there. Sitting by the dim candle light on our table just set the mood. Unfortunately our conversation started off with bad news. His "surprise" wasn't going to happen and my chances of leaving vancouver with him was a no go. But as soon as the food came our mouths were full and no more bad news could escape our mouths. All ended well with some food to take home and a new first time memory. Heading back home to surrey is always good times. I love our car conversations. Sharing songs explaining their meanings and some what relating them to our very own relationship.. Or life in general. Back at my place by 1130 and on goes "Donnie Darko" .. Which was not scary at all. Just philosophical and creepy! Movie was followed by an intense chess game! Which I lost.. yeah :T I'm going to practice! And the photo shoot began. Haha okay so all our other pictures are too much for everyone else to see so that's why that picture up there was put up. It was the only decent one haha. Ate some pie, had our kitchen conversations and 430am hit. Our night was over.
You know out of this whole month we've been together we did everything we've already done in that one night.
After commencement - late night kitchen conversation
Watch a movie in my theater downstairs
Eat out somewhere you take me by surprise
Car conversations
Oh and I guess we didn't watch a live play that night but that's ok.
Everything in life cannot be categorized into either Fear or Love.
Since "Fear is the heart of Love"
...& she followed him into the dark
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KAREOKE!
fortune cookie reads: "THE SOCIAL SCENE WILL BE A LOT MORE FUN TODAY"
I became intoxicated quite quickly so my first hour was dope. I'm pretty sure I rocked that tambourine just brilliantly! Our hour ended so quickly and we had to bounce cause other people were waiting for the room. Luckily brenden knows the people so they were cool with what ever.
2nd hour we went to a different kareoke place across the street. that next hour I was having way too much fun and was quite comfortable haha! Then my song came on. "Waterfalls" by TLC! Yeah they let me sing it cause they knew I wanted to. I was pretty drunk so I was acting like a show off when if came to Left eyes part. Right when the rapping came on I stood up and faced the back of the wall and rapped out Lefteyes whole verse cause I knew it off by heart! And when the song ended I remember I kept repeating "RIP LISA LEFTEYE LOPEZ, I LOVE YOU GIRL!" Hahaha yeah FUN!
I'm sure my student Juan from spain had a pretty good time too, he sang along with the songs he knew and said he had fun :)
Thanks Vanessa, Kara, Tia, Annie, Kevin, Brenden, Malcolm, Gino, Juan, and Kelvin! We are definitely doing that again!
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Goodnight
Woke up late
Rushed to the skytrain
Walked really fast to
The scotia dance centre
Had my meeting
Officially start teaching
JULY 7!
Kelvin & Malcolm
Picked me up
All you can eat
@ Robson sushi
Walked & shopped
New top & nail polish
Later Dukester
Kelvin surprised me with
Tickets to a play
Shakespeare comedy
Pretty fcking funny!
Walked from the
Space centre to
Kitts beach
Watched the sun go down
Talked about the history
Of our scars.. Mostly mine
Walked back to the car
Picked up a hooker
(Jk.. that's for next time ;)
Drove home
He asked my mom for permission
Possibility of me going to Toronto
A week away & to ourselves :)
Watched a movie downstairs
Feel asleep
And then he left
@ 215
Don't SAY you don't know how much I LOVE surpises!
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Aubrey's Debut was wonderful. Night ended early, but cleaning up was fun! Everybody going around trying to pop as many balloons as possible. Ladies with their heels and fellas trying to pop each others balloons under their shirts to see if they could take the sting of the plastic popping. The party ended around 1230 for me till I got picked up. Once I was in the car, had I not known that it was going to be the beginning of my night.
Dropped Shellaine off, and headed back to surrey to kill time before picking up the 5intoxicated clubbers "its ma birthday bitch!" Picking them up from one of the mcDs was so interesting to watch. While lame guys hit on drunk girls and big guys tried to start sht with biggER guys, I enjoyed the biggest icecream cone I've ever had from any mcds I've ever gone too. I should have taken a picture, but I didn't think of that at the moment. Mind was so occupied with the many distractions around me. Kelvin was reading my horoscope but I don't think I was paying attention hahaha, sorry babe. After dropping everyone home we got in around 3 and had the rest of the night for ourselves. I think it was the first time we didn't watch "whose line is it anyways?" amazing! Can't actually recall the last thing we were watching. But I do recall falling asleep involuntarily. I enjoyed that actually, but lucky I woke up at 6ish to realize that I needed to get my ass home. So here I am @ 645 writing this blog before I go back to sleep again. Damn its so bright out already.
I mean it when I say this...
GOODnight!
Don't you SAY good bye. Till you leave me for that additional 2 months...now its 7! I hate you for telling me that! I was just accepting 5months.
I LOVE accidentally sleeping over. I'm going to miss that! Uhhhhh you suck!
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Rest In Paradise
He says most of what I was thinking...
& yeah i did tear up!
SAY your respects to one of the most LOVEd men on this earth.
R.I.P
Cause it was too good to be true. You made me happy all the time. My family loves you, and didn't mind how late you kept me out. My mom trusts me way too much when I'm with you. You get a long with everyone I make you meet. And I still wasn't feeling it as much as I should have been. Today I found out why. Today I got that sure feeling. Today we "argued".
That's all I needed. I needed that balance of good and bad. I guess I can't really say it was bad nor did we really argue, but we just communicated with a struggle, and I liked that. You cared too much, and I pushed you away to stop. But you're cute when you care. Like I said I was just tired and cold. No big, not your fault, so I don't know why you need to say sorry. Plus I do owe you for taking care of me that night. I'm so sorry... I partied way too early.
So now that I have gotten to see that we can have a down side I'm more then happy and more then satisfied :D I'm in...l..l.. No, I'm not going to SAY LOVE. Not yet :)
Thanks batman
Love: the gongshow ;) (thnks GG)
Haha fm new nickname, I'm the sht!
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Yourwords
I know you're words are truly written. No pressure nor force, just straight from the heart, mind, and sweet memories. References only you and I would understand, and only expressed feelings that would come from our specific relationship. You make me feel stupid when I'm around you because you're words are as if they've been read out of an award winning book about a troubled heart that found its way to love. I don't know how you do it, or what exactly it is you're doing, but please don't stop. Your charm has seem to win over my families hearts. Especially my mom, lola, and even my sister!! Which is the most hardest person to impress. You don't have to keep trying to win me over.. You should already know that you did that a long time ago.
You don't see how great full I am to have you back in my life... You make me want to show you off, but at the same time I don't because I'm selfish and just want to have you for myself.
"I would call you my 'Princess';.." Yes I do still have my tiara from gr9 :) "..say I 'Love' you; Just puppy love. But I don't think I understand what we had. I'm glad I learned from the past. I no longer greatly regret breaking up with you. I now see it was to prepare me for greater time. It took two and a half years for me to rebuild myself, to realize how much I need you. My life has changed because of you and for that I am eternally grateful." - dke
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Life has been soo good to me
wed. GRADDRESS&PRACTICE
Afterskew he, serena and mark came with me to check out my grad dress for the very first time. Was nothing like the style I gave her to make but it turned out pretty nice even though it was still undone.
Headed home and donnel came over to practice for Dancity. Practiced from 5-11 and we finally had our piece made up and ready for teaching
thurs. COMMENCEMENT
After skew got ready at home, make up did and all that jazz, got picked up by derek and headed to the bell centre. On stage I found out that I won a Dogwood fine arts scholarship for $1000. I was so happy, and all I could hear was serena and my dad cheering in the audience. Although I wished my brother and sister could have made it I was happy that my dad, his gf, my mom, her bf, my lola, my bestfriend, and he were all there to support me.
Later that night we went back to my place celebrated and then serena went home. He stayed over till 2am watching "vicky christina barcelona" with me my moms and her bf. I never thought my mom could be so cool with a guy stayin over so late haha.
fri. PROMNIGHT & DRYGRAD
Jermi came over early and we got ready. Moms took pictures and we headed to meet our limo. We all went to QE (obvs) took pics and headed to vancouver convention centre. Our room was gorgeous and had an amazing view because one whole wall was glass. Jermi was being an amazing grad date. No regrets! This perfect night went on to dry grad. Las vegas baby!! Poker tables, cartoonist, sumo wrestling, blow up boxing, bun gee running, movies, fondue, mocktails, and a hypnotist! Too many deats but it was real fun.
Didn't get home till 6 am, and then I passed out!
sat. RECOVERY
Woke up at 12, went back to sleep at 3 woke up at 7. Got an email finding out I received that extra "Shirley Clements scholarship" from outbreak and got an extra 100 in my pocket. "That's so cool you get money for being awesome" hahaha rachel you're so cute! Went over to jamies house. Got home at 11 pm. He came over at 12.
sun. :) & DANCITY
He stayed till 4am. Mom was cool with it. New status :). Went to sleep & woke up at 9. Headed over to richmond and Dancity was happening. Me and donnel had over 50 people take our class! Huge success! Dj was bumpin and we all had fun. Sickstylz symphony had raised just over 1900! Thanks to all of the people who came out to support! Much love.
mon. NEWOPPORTUNITY
A little while ago I had a teaching job lined up for me. Unfortunately I had to turn it down because of skew at AI. But plan changed and I'm starting at AI in october. So in the summer I plan on getting a 2nd job. But I found out there is another teaching job available for me downtown at the scotiabank theater. If all works out well I'm going to take this opportunity and ill be a part time dance teacher. I don't want to have to keep passing up open doors like this. Thanks to marc I also got another audition lined up later this month. Life has just been soo good to me! I'm so glad I am where I am.
Schools almost over, extra money in the pocket, job opps popping up, and a new status with he. Who SAYs shts too good to be true? My life is sooo gooood and its all true! I LOVE my life :)
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Happy at its best
Where do I begin? Haha its so hard to see since my eyes are really puffed up right now, and my cheeks are in a manageable amount of pain due to all the smiles that were expressed voluntarily and involuntarily :) more details about that after.
It started off with commencement practice. All the grads of our class sat in our spots for the actual commencement, and then we grabbed out gowns. Everybody was full of stories and comments of high school past times and graduation. Many of the jocks stand by me saying "yo cas we got to take a picture together later" haha I enjoyed it. I have a feeling that I just might be remembered. Already just having the gown in my hand just did it for me. This is it. We're walking the stage.
Get home, get ready and get pictures taken with my loving lola <3 Derek picked me up and the next thing you know is that I'm taking pictures with all the grads I've actually talked to this year hahaha. Parents come, and so does my bestfriend, and guyfriend. There I am sitting on my ass for a good 2 hours grabbing some entertainment from antonio and joshua. Just met josh that night but we hit it off well. Slowly I start to get nervous as our line gets closer and closer to getting my steps across that stage without falling on my face. Then there I am. I see antonio walk to the end of the stage and its my turn.. "Cas_____ P.." " WOOOOOO GO CASSSS" haha I love you serena! And then as I'm about to walk off "Casandra has also won a scholarship for fine arts.." !!!!! Yeah 1000 to bank into my tuition at AI. Fck yeah!! I was so nervous about that scholarship application but I'm glad I did it. Came out to my dad, his girl, my mom, her boy, my lola, bestfriend, and him. I was a little upset my siblings couldn't make it, but they're there for me when I need them most. Didn't take much time taking pictures after cause I know ill get a bunch tomorrow at grad so we headed back to my place.
Carrying a bouquet of roses and another bouquet of flowers was a little difficult but I liked it :)
Totally satisfied with how the night went but that's just the begining. The 3 of us (me, bestfriend, and he) sat in my kitchen ate, talked, and enjoied each others company up until serena kicked it at 1030. He and I stayed talking till 1120 then we headed downstairs to cool down in the basement. Ma and bf came down aswell to watch a movie. So we watched with them. Watched one of the best movies ever and I definitely want to hit up spain to see the beautiful artwork and enjoy the way of life in culture and art over there. The way they live is so beautiful and full of passion, art, and love. I can't explain much more, its something you'll just want to make a living out of. Living a life of inspiration is soul satisfying. One day! We'll get over there.
Movie ended a bit after 2, and I'm glad you stayed till the end. Now I can't stop thinking of happy thoughts. I know corny but true. The night ended wit goodbyes and goodnights.
Blog more bout the wonderful day/night a little later. I'll SAY by the end of this weekend LOVE will come over me and stories with follow. Till then g'night!
Grad here I come :)
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