Thanks Jamie for introducing me to those books when we were younger & thanks again for these quotes.
Time to rest my mind a little.
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TY: Number 18?
SEX THERAPY
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Hey yeah
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Hey yeah
Stressed out uptight, over worked wound up
Unleash what you got lets explore your naughty side
Follow me where we go, we dont need no bread crumbs
Cant you see baby you're the only one
You are my love, you are my love
Let me be your medicine
Cause I got one thing on my mind Ill be your valentine
Spread your wings and baby fly away
Its your body you can yell if you want to
Loud if you want to, scream if you want to
Just let me love you lay right here girl don't be scared of me
Give you sex therapy, give you sex therapy
Its your body well go hard if you want to
As hard as you want to, soft as you want to
Just let me love you lay right here Ill be your fantasy
Give you sex therapy, give you sex therapy
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Yeah yeah
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Ooooo
Baby less all for you to do is let your body be
Ill lick you down and make you feel like you bout it bout it
Ha ha ha ha ha ha, the doctors here for you
Take you like Twilight I'll bite your neck
You don't have to stay in the rain Ill get you wet, yeah
Push you up against the wall ,turn you out and turn you on
Eh eh whoa
Its your body you can yell if you want to
Loud if you want to, scream if you want to
Just let me love you lay right here girl dont be scared of me
Give you sex therapy, give you sex therapy
Its your body well go hard if you want to
As hard as you want to, soft as you want to
Just let me love you lay right here Ill be your fantasy
Give you sex therapy, give you sex therapy
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WHOAMIKIDDING?
atm
I feel like I can't do this. The pressure is pushing it out of me. I'm trying to be all I can me but I'm really testing my strength, and I've found my weakness. Running a life on a fully set schedule isn't good. Not for me at least. It sucks not having time. Why don't I make time though? Why? Well cause I gotta stay on the grind. Pay for this adult life I didn't sign up for. I never chose to live the way I am now. Yeah I might have signed up for the jobs & schooling but its cause I had to. We're not in this for the experience of living on our own. We're doing this for ourselves cause we rather be the ones putting pressure on ourselves rather than you guys putting it on us. Yeah having a place of my own is "cool" at 18 but there are so many things i can but can't manage, or not liking. I don't like going home tired after a hard day of work walking late at night for a good 20mins in the cold and no one there. Yeah straight up it does get lonely. For this whole weekend everytime I come home no ones been there, even if I do come home past 1-2 in the am. The house all to myself & my music. Having a few hours before my body actually wants to sleep but not in the right state of mind to do homework, or do it well. I'm struggling, I'm hurting, and I'm not liking it.
What do I do? What can I do?
.. & "robin thicke - sex therapy" starts playing
Fck I mine-as-well be an adult now and get this age shit going. I'm already living the adult life, with out the legal "19" title.
Can I get out of here? I don't like complaining, but I keep doing it. Please free me from this struggle. Someone, anyone.
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TY: Number Seventeen
"I pray for you when things are down and out with the family. I know how hard it is for you to deal with."
Again I don't know who the submitted this one is, but I appreciate it. Its reassuring to know someone is thinking about you and praying for you. Paying is something I'm ashamed to admit that I haven't done in a while. Crazy sign came up out of the blue. A dear friend asked me to go to church with him this wednesday. I want to go. I miss the connection with me & the man in the clouds. He's actually the most consistent man in my life. I owe him so much. I believe its also time for another confession. Dates way past do, so it must be done.
Speaking of doing things...
"In Time, it isn't the things you do, but the things you leave undone, which give you a heartache at the setting of the sun"
I think its telling me to do homework..
Well that and possibly confession, which I do plan on doing. I'm on my way to getting things done. And all the little steps I take help every little bit. For example, creating my little post-its "To-do-lists" with check off boxes, or writing my schedule & homework down in my planner, and just setting my alarm extra early so I can have enough time to eat, shower, dress, and commute. Every bit counts, and that's how I get things done.
Time to check off the box that says sleep!
Btw: my eye stopped twitching :)
Good weekend
-OPENING CEREMONIES
-BigRidge
-Adyen Art Gallery
-Richmond *something* Tea Restaurant
-Aritzia
DEATs COMING SOON
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My peruvian family for the opening ceremonies
QUICKY
-sat next to him "tellmewhatyournameis"
-full dress rehearsal
-i wish i got to see usher/nellyFertado/bryanAdams
-did run into Gerald though "hello"
-watched "This is it" again <3 ripMJ
-new couches in the house
-i think I'm sick
-muscles around my left eye, in my left arm & in my left leg keep twitching (third day now)
-i get to work up at TNA in WHISTLER next week fck yeah!
-Opening ceremonies in 2DAYS!!
-Ronnie you're hysterical please keep in touch even after the opening ceremonies =D
Mid Term STUDY TIME!
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TELLMEWHATYOURNAMEIS
"Just then it came as a surprise.
When I looked into your eyes.
Never walked up to a guy.
But here I go.
I don't wanna waste your time.
I just wanna make you mine.
Wanna play with you all night.
So tell me what your name is.
And I know I'm acting strange.
Girls ain't suppose to talk this way.
But I can't let you slip away.
So tell me what your name is.
I see you sitting all alone.
Tell me though, if you got a girl at home.
I gotta know,
Is she taking care of you.
Like I would do.
And he said I don't have a girl at home.
But I'm feeling you."
I always see you upstairs working on something. You pop your head up and your eyes get off your computer screen and meet mine. In those few moments our eyes meet I try not to show any emotions and go on to what I was supposed to be doing. We do this routine more than I can count or remember. Your always there. Today you came into our class to use the scanner. I always wondered where you went when you left your computer up there for so long. I'd probably never go up to you and start up a conversation, but one day I might get up on that other side of the bed & feel different. Seriously though, what's your name?! Oh and it might "relax" you and all, but fyi smoking is bad for you. Not cool. But I like your style. Even if you is more casual for the most part. You do it well, so keep doing it. I'll see you around guy..
littleschoolgirlcrush
Waking up in 5, sht
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NEVERTHOUGHTIDSEETHEDAY
Good night, goodnight.
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WEAKend
ATM
I'm sitting in BC place in our dressing room, make up done but not in costume yet. Left eyes still twitching listening to "I can't help it Breakadawn mix" - Michael Jackson mixed by Dj Jazzy Jeff. On msn catching up with PJ. Waiting for the show to start, which will prolly be at 630. I'm kind of getting excited now that I know that the whole stadium will be full of people rather than just empty seats haha. Anddddddddd about to finish yet another pointless blog, but also a fine memory for myself to keep & look back at haha. K LATER!
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LifeisSOGOOD
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You make me so ambitious. You see the beauty in people rather than their physical appearance. You're thoughtful, kind, & GOOD. You & I share a lot of the same thoughts. You know how to make me laugh & or just smile. You're you, and to you that's all that matters. & I like that about you.
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Who's number is this?
Oh. Okay.
Mm good bye.
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RECAP
School: aiight
Aritzia: CRAZY SALE "You snooze you loose sale!"
Big Ridge: grrreat
Home: Living with the brother & sister, good stuff. Groceries are expensive shttt. Transits a btch!
Olympics: long ass rehearsals
Love: not now, but he's nice :)
Dance: I miss you
Art: keeping me company
Serena: is an awesome bestfriend <3 haha 2010 what's up?!
Kevin: I don't know what'd I would do without you buddy! Thanks a lot!
Skype: Hahahahahahahhahahahahaha yo, your funny. Can't believe you're going to that extent to call me :P, sooo cute :) Cali 2010? Yeeeaaaa
=D
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AREYOUF'REAL?
you make me talk the way I do.
you seem just too good to be true.
where did you come from anyway?
broke down your walls, listen to what you say.
know your history, know your past.
Started talking 4years ago, damn time flies fast.
when will we meet face to face?
will it be at that orange county place?
--oh writers block--
Hahahaha I tried.
Thanks inspo ;)
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IWANTTOGOTOCALI
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???:
and ima house u
and u can kick it and not worry about money
and ill cook for u as long as u buy the groceries
tahahhahaa
???:
and we can work on my company
???:
alright
so its set
ur gonna move here
dont know when
but u will
.............
Haha damn I got a huge smile on my face right now. Our nightly conversations just get better & better. It might not be over the phone cause we can't, but it feels the same. I haven't done the whole falling asleep "on the phone" thing in a long time. And you say your "shy" haha. Damn, iwanttogotocali right now.
As fun/nice as this is, I don't want to feel this way. Not right now. It feels so good, but its also blinding. Damn..
You're so cute though.
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THE MOVE
In our new place unpacking and settling in. Sister, brother & I are finally on our own. Thanks ma for helping us move & giving us well a lot of house necessities. Damn so much more sht we need to buy still though. I'm pretty tired with unpacking so I'm going to call it a night and start again in the am when the suns out. LATER
Nts: buy a sht car to get from A to B. Cool.
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"That's that heat"
Never really crashed any like that before. Pretty funny.
Could you not see what was going on? Haha silly boy. Maybe next time then =P
Good night.
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TAEYANG
Can dance
Can sing
Can act
Has an amazing body
Has style
Has a beautiful face
& is the new lust of my life <3
domenow.
i can't recall anyone i wanted so bad. hes the kinda guy that makes you bite you lip while you try and smirk, and makes your heart start pumping just cause he has that effect on you. you know when you try to cover your face with one hand cause you can't look no more, yet you still leave space between your fingers to peek through cause you know it looks good. Yup, thats the effect taeyang has got on me.
Life drawing
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I like the way you dream about us hanging out.
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Speaking of dreams... Last nights was, strange. But I liked it haha.
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TY: Number Sixteen
Need more time for family. Family cannot be replaced.
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I got your email. I knew it was from you cause my phone started flashing red&blue. Every time I read what you have to say I choke up. My throat literally starts swelling up, and when I try to reply the same thing happens and even worse my eyes feel the need to start tearing up. Nothing comes down though. Its like I'm allergic to this tension between us. There are some sorts of tension between people I like, can handle, or can't stand. This one is between "can handle" & "can't stand". When will it end?
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I should be sleeping
Oh right.. I used to do a lot of this in 2009. I almost forgot what this was. I'm remembering now. This is a horrible feeling.
Wish I was with you right now. I'd let you listen to my heart beat again. This time I'd be the opposite from what you were hearing the 1st time. Its slow. Somewhat calm. But if I were with you, you'd know exactly how to speed it right back up again. I still have your sweater. Does your room still smell like me?
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Cas go to sleep.
Run away.
Delete your whole blog.
Start a new one.
Go to sleep.
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Highlight: Eye Contact
On the floor busting tables, expediting, and running food. Keeping a steady pace with the flow of hungry customers coming in. I walk around my usual circular path, and pass table 23. A table of 5 discussing some sort of business matter. Two ladies, three fellas. Closest to the end, caucasian, buff, bald, beautiful smile, brown eyes catches my eye. Grabbing plates off the table forcing my head to not look towards his direction, especially since he's so close. As I turn away from the table he gives off this handsome smirk while his eyes are seeing right thru my hollow eyes. I'm guessing he, and the rest of his table are around 24. The older ones always intimidate me. But playing tag with the eyes is always a fun game to play. I thought it would just be me trying to catch a peek, but he decided to play with me. I go ahead doing what I got to do as if he doesn't phase me. But he kept looking over as just much as I wanted to. I'd be cleaning tables behind his, and he'd look back, and give a quick grin. One of those grins where you have to turn your head in the opposite direction just because you can't hold back your smile any longer. But I held ground, and did the same as he did. When I'd be cleaning a table towards the front of his direction I'd steal a peek, and he'd catch me and smile right back. Each and every time he smiled it was an automatic reaction for me to smile without even thinking. We kept playing tag the whole 2 hours and a bit he was there. It was when he stood up to head to the washroom and passed by me and smiled with his perfect teeth that I was so sprung I must admit. He was just so good looking, and the fact that he even played back just made it that much more great. Also knowing that its going to be one of those one time interactions just made it so.. Fun! Haha
Maybe he'll eat at the restaurant once again possibly when I'm working. I'm always up for some eye contact tag. Especially with someone who is so easy on the eyes. Oh gawd, thank goodness I'm able to work during lunch time on week days. I missed it.
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TY: Number Fifteen
Check
Check
& Check
Just recently my mind has been chewing on the idea of me missing out on that lovey dovey relationship stuff. But after last nights conversation with Shay about my life since NYE 2010 it reminded me how much fun I've been having. Over doses of this thing we call "fun" got me brain dead for a minute thinking that I needed more, or wish I had that one more thing. But I'm 'sober' now and my thoughts are back to thinking straight.
This "over dose" was also the reason why I didn't see you this weekend. I should have brought you, like I said I would. I'm sorry. I guess I got shy to bring you around so sudden. We prolly would have had quite a bit of fun, just like the last time. But there will be other nights. If you're still up for it. I won't sell out next time. Again, sorry.
"Deep kisses" that make my heart pound faster.. And make yours louder
"Strange adventures" every night
"Midnight swims" outdoor in a heated pool (oh gawd I want to go back to this)
"Rambling conversations" with you keep me up @ night
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Jamie you the best!
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TY: Number Fourteen
So this one kind of crosses out my last entry. Or at least what I said at the end of it.
I pulled out the top one at first. Reading a line from a tegan&sara song called "i know i know i know." Didn't think it had any relation to do with anything in my life right now. So i pulled out a 2nd one out at random. Another quote from an old entry in my blog.
"After falling asleep w/you i woke up at 445 only to see my bed empty. I missed you by 45mins. For the rest of the night i had an uncomfortable sleep. I got to undo getting used to you here with me till 4 in the am. No more loving late nights after the 11th and after T.O."
Again, nothing to do with anything in my life right now.. nor anything that i can think of. I'm not sure what kind of 'sign' this may be. Or may not be. Lets lay out the possibilities...
Those were the days when you and i were still together, happy as ever, lovin' early mornings/days/nights, and free as a bee. But now my life is ALMOST total opposite. You and i, well there is no you and i, still happy as ever, either busy &/or exciting mornings/days/nights, and busy as a bee. Hmm, am i supposed to see the contrast? Is this showing me i don't need someone else to keep me happy? Or is this just exactly what it is.. random and over thought?
PROBABLY the last one. These quotes are all supposed to mean something to me, and they do. These ones mean a lot to me. Though they are not what i have now, i can look back and say that i did have something special once. But that something special will forever be that something that WAS special. Its history now, and neat to look back at, right? Sure. I'll just go with that haha.
THANKS JAJA!
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WHAT A DAY!
i worked
THEN i got ready
Picked up Johnny
Started to drive to the battle
Got some MCDS
LOST ON THE HYW
WENT TO CRESENT BEACH?!
ALMOST TO THE BORDER FOR SEATTLE?!?!
Found our way back
Got to the battle
2TIES <- AWESOME BATTLES DROVE BACK TO SURREY GOT LOST AGAIN?!
Found our way back
Drove Johnny home
Headed to Kings
Watched WaterBoy (HA)
Got Stuck in the ELEVATOR w/KARL&LAWRENCE
Drove 'em home
Game Over
NUTZ!
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TY: Number Thirteen
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Crazy how I pull these quotes out at random and they always end up having to do with something that's going on in my life at the moment. Just Craziness.
Ty:JamieJane
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TY: Number Twelve
Guess I'm not dying anytime soon. (Knock on wood)
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1. I like that we have no mutual friends.
2. I like that I don't know your name. (Yet)
3. I like it when you talk to me first.
4. I like that you get embarrassed easily in front of me.
5. I like how we hardly know each other, but act like we do.
6. I like our history.
7. I like your drunk msgs. Its funny.
I like that I don't love anything between me & them besides just being friends.
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TY: Number Eleven
Like I put on my twitter bio: "Dancing is what I love doing. It's my passion, and that's not going to change. As long as there will be music, I will be dancing." Every word I said I meant & is true.
Ever since, well ever since I always wanted to be an Artist. I absolutely was addicted to drawing and painting. Most especially when I got my first and very own double sided Playskool painting/drawing/chalkboard/whiteboard easel. Oh man was it ever the best. We had it set up in our garage because my mom didn't want me spilling paint on the carpet. I got this for christmas and I remember going downstairs at 8am during the christmas break every morning just to paint, and I wouldn't even feel the cold. It had 2 sides but on each side I was able to flip the board around depending on what I wanted to do.
But I believe the moment I realized I wanted to be a painter was this one odd day when I was drawing. It was a weekend afternoon, and I was sitting on the stairs with my pencil, pencil crayons, markers, and a pad of paper. At the time I had a phase of drawing hills because it was my way of creating depth with foreground layers. So things actually looked far but on 2D paper. I was drawing a bunch of hills, and birds, flowers, and small houses, with a bit of clouds up above and one sun. I colored it in and showed one of my family members that was passing by to go down the stairs. It was my dad and he said to me "did you draw that? No, you didn't draw that" and I told him it was me I swear, he could even ask my sister. That's when I thought that maybe I can draw pretty good. If he thought it was too "good" to be drawn by me then maybe I could get even better if I tried. I loved the compliment. It soaked in and gave me this extra boost to believe in myself and love what I love doing.
To be continued...
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Jan1910
"You can trust others. Just be discerning about who you trust. Figure this out and you'll be unstoppable."
-24hrs
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TY: Number Ten
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Good day with Karl. Avatar was fantastic. The hype was worth it, & I would definitely go back to the theaters to watch it again.
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TY: Number Nine
First I would like to thank you Jamie for again creating this whole gift, and second I would like to thank the person who submitted this quote. If I may, Jamie can I know who this is from so I can thank them personally? Please & thank you.
Maybe I don't want you to see me.. All of me. Not yet at least.
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TY: Number Eight
When we're babies we play with toys, but we want more toys, or someone else's toys, or even bigger toys. We can never have enough. Slowly we grow older and want different things. Shoes, more shoes, nicer shoes, expensive shoes. A boy friend, a nicer boyfriend, more/different boyfriends (Haha just an example). The more we change or grow, our lists of things we want change. It is not only until we're old enough or wise enough to prevent this bad habit of wanting the better things in life. Some people become less picky, and accept what they have and don't have. I believe this change happens mostly by experiences. Experiences of either being/seeing the less fortunate in anyway. Realization occurs and we change our mind set to be less greedy with what the world has put before us.
But don't think that wanting to have more fun, or wanting to spend a little more to look nice, or wanting to be out a little later is a bad thing. We're born with the want to look for more, expect something to happen, and hope for another better ending.
"If you woke up, and you had the greatest day of your life, why would you need to live anymore? You know there's always something better, something iller. That's why we keep going." - Tommy Rebel
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Currently listening to: Usher - I love you too (new)**
I went to a bumpin' party last weekend. Had the greatest time of my life, sober & innocent. One beer & flirtatious conversations, that's it. 3 different djs spinning oldschool & newschool tracks, everybody dancing shoulder to shoulder, chips & snacks on the table and somewhat all over the floor, flash photography capturing the highlights of the night, good times with old friends, & fresh memories for brand new friendships. It was just a great night. All the fun & here I am. One weekend later another party. Its that "there's always something better, something iller" feeling again. & also just being there for the celebrants special day.
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Its more understood when you're at a party of 20+ and there is potential tension between certain people that you won't end up getting around to on any communication levels. Conversation, simple actions (like a wave), or eye contact are all completely avoided. But when its less than that then the percentage of tension about to be created becomes a lot bigger. More so when the avoiding just becomes ignoring or even when someone's presence is completely unacknowledged. Its like when you're picked last in a game of dodge ball but without being picked at all. You're standing there, everyone else has been chosen already, you're left for last pick , but instead of even being chosen the game is already starting. I understand that our communication levels are next to nothing, but that doesn't mean we can't still be on the same team. But if its really that bad then just say so, so I don't make a fool out of myself by accidentally saying "hi" or something even worse like "bye".
Craziness. You got your family, relatives, friends, co-workers, acquaintances, & others. That's why there's always that extra option tab that says "Others".. I didn't understand before. But I get now.
Ty Jamie Jane
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TY: Number 7
TY Jamie for reminding me.
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Currently listening to:
Q-Tip ft. Norah Jones- Life is Better
Achoooo*
Sniff sniff*
Cough cough cough*
illin' & not liking it.
Seriously what's this bump on my arm?! I thought it was a bruise! I hope I'm not dying. I'd be ready to go though. Yeah, I'm ready.
I'm praying for you & you & you.
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TY: Number Six
"Each man is capable of doing one thing well. If he attempts several, he will fail to achieve distinction in any"
Another reason why I should and will be quitting _________.
Atm I'm doing..
Pt @ aritzia
Pt @ bigridge
Ft @ AI
1ce a week practices for 2010
CRAZINESS!
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I wish I could give you two everything you deserve. I'm going to as best I can to help out and keep focused on school. I know I don't ever say this.. Literally, but I love you.
Thank you for giving me this opportunity.
Thank you for keeping me company, hope this isn't too weird.
Thank you for getting to know me and being consistent distantly.
Thank you for doing all you can for me, I love you.
Thank you for trying, I still love you even though its hard to see you right now. Stay sane.
Thank you for being REDICULOUSLY amazing & awesome & incredible haha I fcking love you and how our 2010 started :P
Thank YOU for inspiring me with every blog. Love you too :)
Thank you for being you, & knowing who you are, LOVE YOU THE MOST!
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I know I know I know, I said that LOVE wasn't in my vocab no more, but I ment that in a "I LOVE YOU (boys name)" kinda way. Sorry, not in Love with no boys right now. Only love for the special people in my life. You know who you is.
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TY: Number 5
These feelings come & go. Almost every time I get these feelings I'm right.
"Seldom wrong, But never in doubt"
When we were talking this feeling came to me. I knew that this isn't going to go anywhere crazy. As much as you might have wanted it to, or I would have liked it to, I knew that as much as we would even talk about it, we'd stay the way we are. I like where we are. You seem like you do too, but you want more.. Well you do, but don't. You know its not possible. WE know its not possible. One day? Maybe, but for right now it seems like we know our grounds. I don't doubt that what we "have" is just an everyday & anyday thing. We have something special, with a deep history that we can some-what look back & laugh at. As much as it makes us distant it also connects us that much more. Let's just keep rockin' steady since we know where we stand. Fun right? Fun, yeah "queso"... :P
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Currently listening to:
Usually I'm the lovey dovey type, call me erry night so I can fall asleep on the phone type, butterflies in my tummy type, heart pumpin' cause you smiled type, oh man this boys got me sprung type, he's all I think about type, let love take over type, relationships are amazing type girl.
But lately I've been the he's cute he's cute oh and he's cute type, I talked to him and chilled with him type, btw I'm not looking to get into anything type, hella flirtatious type, party & bullsh*t type, dress to impress type, my love bone is numb type girl.
Truth be told that's what the story is. Love isn't even in my vocabulary anymore, unless I'm talking about dance or art. I feel a little heartless sometimes. I have my fun & my feelings for being loved or loving is turned off. Was it the calm break up? Is it the frustrating family dilemma? Is it the overdose of fun? What ever it is its making me stronger, and a little less heart full.. or just making me care less.
I'm becoming one of those people that can't give their all to just any John Doe that steps into my life. You gotta work for my emotions before I can let you in and start affecting my life. But the thing is, I don't want to let anyone in. I don't want to be attached. So I'll be upfront with anyone who wants to come in and "wants to get to know me." Boy, honestly all you need to know is that I'm not looking for anything, & I'm just having fun. And if want to get to know me, hang with me, give me friendship time, let me pay my own & we'll go our own ways at the end of the night.
I'm changing, and yep I'm admitting it. Hopefully this change isn't happening too fast for me to keep a good grasp and control.
**Thanks Jamie Jane.
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TY: Number Four
I've been following this care-free routine for sometime now, but slowly it has turned into this care-free NEED. I NEED to have fun, I NEED to be out, I NEED etc etc..
"When you let go of the need for any & all outcomes, life becomes a creative, magical adventure."
-Deepak Chopra
I forgot how to let go of what I THOUGHT I needed. What I needed was nothing, and that's what brought me to this excitement to begin with. When I just went with it, I found myself new adventures to face. Creatively I've been riding them, but I'm beginning to think that I NEED to be riding these adventures. So I'm doing what ever possible to keep them going. & that was my mistake. I shouldn't depend on these things I don't need. I pulled a few bad habits from 2009 back into 2010. But I'm pushing them back into the past, and using my new tools from 2010 to make sure that 2009 habits are staying in 2009.
Tonight was a close call to an adventure I almost took a journey on.. Again.
I want to keep my life a creative, magical adventure.
Dedicated to: Jamie-Jane
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I hope everything is okay. I'm a little worried.
//Can't believe you got me feeling this way.
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TY: Number Three
Selah"
This was my Summer/Fall 09' LIKEs List
Winter 2010 LIKEs List...
ChasePartyBeatsWintercoats&SnowBoardsUnreadBBMMsgsWarmthfromyourbodyChocolate
Selah
Dedicated to: Jamie-Jane
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Today's List:
Cold transportation
BBM messages
Out of date Ipod
Sudoku
Laying next to you
Strong Heartbeats
Studio time
Mc Chicken + S&S sauce
Bestfriends
New friends
Laughs
& Good times
I guess this is the part where I say Goodnight.
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TY: Number Two
"Like all dreamers, I confuse disenchantment with truth."
- Jean-Paul Sartre
Lately I've been facing situations that only my fantasies would dream up. Hearing sweet things, smiling just because, eye contact, that newness feeling.. Its all something I would fantasize about, but never thought would actually come true. And here it is, right in front of my face, tapping me on the shoulder & waiting for me to keep things going. Is this another "too good to be true" kind of moments in life? Or is this equally good & bad enough to stick around in my life to keep me happy. I mean when its there its like I'm in a different world living another life, someone else's life who deserves this great feeling. And as soon as I'm away, I'm back in reality but still left with this great feeling. Do I deserve all of this? Is it the good karma coming to me after going to a lot of bad karma at the end of 2009? Or is it just a fresh start?
What ever it is, I'm loving it. I'm no longer confused with the truth & disenchantment. The truth is that I deserve happiness in my life, and I'm not afraid to admit it.
TY Jamie-Jane.
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TY: Number One
A day before NYE I decide to open it because I was too excited and didn't want to forget to open it on NYE night.
A blue (my favorite colour) vase filled with 100+ folded pieces paper (like when you draw names from a hat). The mini hand made card reads:
"In this vase contains many thoughts inspirations and wisdom that I hope you take to heart. Many of the scribbles contain your own comments and ideas from your blog over the past year to show you how much you've grown mentally and spiritually. The only reason it is 1/4th full because you've only lived 1/4th of your life. I want you to fill this vase with love, respect, and joy you deserve for the rest of your life. A new year means a new life for you, a fresh start. Happy Holidays from your sistar, JamieJane."
No gift has EVER been so meaningful to me. I absolutely love this gift and will forever treasure it. I've already gone through each one once, but when ever I feel like a need a uplifting boost I'll open up one of these pieces of paper, think about how the meaning of this quote relates to me and blog about it.
Jamie-Jane you've put a lot of thought & effort in this & the least I could do is give the favor back by dedicating each of these blogs to you. So here is number one .. TY = Thank You
"Things can only get better from here. I promise"
I'm not sure who you got this one from, but their right. So far 2010 has only been good to me. The end of 2009 was a disaster, with work, school, family & friends.
Its 2010 and everything is in the past now.
Work: is steady with both jobs
School: is in the process of being worked out
Family: is low key atm
Friends: Met some new ppl...
I like meeting new people
"I would like to get to know you"
I could tell you my life in probably 5 sentences, but let's play it out nicely & start some new memories for this new friendship. Cause honestly, that's all I'm looking for. Don't think that this is going to go anywhere, no one can tell what the future holds, so let's not try to "predict" things.
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Thanks for chilling with me. I told you you could "take it all away" once I saw you. Stay sweet, not that you're going to become sour. But you know... "Just sayin'" ;)
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